Living With Intention in 5775: Week 34

Shalom all! Well, this week’s challenge comes via our dear sister Laurie L. I pray it blesses and encourages you. I am looking forward to digging into the Word this week!

Heavy on my heart lately is my father and my Father.  This week it will be 20 years ago that my father passed away.  So I am reminded every year at this time of the longest week of my life where my father went into the hospital on a Monday, we found out that he had cancer, and by the following Monday he left this world.  After he died, I prayed to my Father and said, “Father G-d, you took my earthly father away–I don’t have him anymore and you know how much he meant to me, so I need you to take over.  You are my heavenly Father, but I need you more than ever now.”  And that was the beginning of learning to seek Him more deeply than I ever had before.
As I have been thinking and remembering and assessing my life over these past 20 years of looking to Hashem as my Father, I am getting glimpses that there are things about His character that I know and understand and share with others and know it is true, but in my mind I don’t realize that it holds true for me as well.  How does He react to me in good times and in bad times?  I am less forgiving of myself than He is, and that is something that I would like to renew with truth in my mind.  I think if I have a better understanding of who my Father is, by taking the time to read and meditate on and renew my mind in these truths it will be such a blessing to Him and to myself and also everyone I interact with.
So for week 34, the challenge is to take time as you read through Torah, and as you read through and listen to Yeshua speak about Avinu (our Father) take time to listen, meditate, and really realize and know and see WHO Avinu is.  I’ve had Exodus 34:6-7 in my mind and I am starting there:

Then the L-RD passed by in front of him and proclaimed, “The L-RD, the L-RD G-d, compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in lovingkindness and truth; who keeps lovingkindness for thousands, who forgives iniquity, transgression and sin; yet He will by no means leave the guilty unpunished, visiting the iniquity of fathers on the children and on the grandchildren to the third and fourth generations.” (Exodus 34:6-7)

My hope is to begin to grow even deeper in my walk with Him, to renew my mind, to take on His characteristics in a fresh new way and remember them as I live my daily life in successes and in my failures.

Blessings and a good week!

Sarah and Laurie L.